I wonder if the water etched a spotted
bull's-eye on the pane--something to lure
the bullet birds to smash where blinds obscure
the scrabble toeholds in the screen. The knotted
cord plays on my fingers. I can pull
and burst the room with light and glitter eyes,
the beaks like shining corn, the frantic cries
and clack of wings. Do feathers bloom the dull
and piebald grass? Does blood bloom on the sill?
I've envied birds, the hollow flit of bone,
but not the skullthunk knocking like a stone
tossed by a lover. I could make them still,
could snap a neck as swiftly as a bean.
Instead I wait. Clean. Unseeing. Unseen.
Julie Carter lives in Ohio with her husband and their strange array of cats. Her work has appeared in Alsop's Anthology, Able Muse, Snakeskin, OCHO, and in her recent book: pseudophakia.
© 2006 Julie Carter